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I'm carrying around
My little black notebook
Waiting for the right line
Waiting for the right hook
To come-along and save me
I feel so uninspired
"Sleep until I'm dizzy"
Or, "drink until I'm tired"
Something in my mind
Keeps me all-day-guessing, all the time
I wait and wait around
For my body to be mine
I'm on the floor
I'm in a blanket fort built just for one
If I never leave
I'll never know what I have done
I'm out-of-touch and uninvested
Emotionally-avoidant
Over-stimmed and under-rested
One sad song from feeding myself to the worms below
Something's got to give
Or else something has to go
So give me ketamine
Or give me kerosene
Give me anything to stop
This spiraling
I don't go out to eat
I don't go to the movies
I spend more money than I have
To have the food brought to me
Because people outside of my house
Scare me and cause me to doubt
Am I a good person, can you see me
Am I even real at all?
Sometimes I wonder if the folks
I used to know have found-
Out that I am a transexual
If word has got around
Like, "that guy
From all those musicals
Remember him? He wasn't cool
I guess that 'he' is now a 'she'
Or 'they,' a lady"
Anything at all
These days of restitution
Reclamation of identity
Would feel a whole lot better
If I didn't feel so shitty
How can I live
My life under a golden sky
When every passing minute feels
Like I'm about to die
There's something in the water
Looking-back at who I used to be
If fortune favors boldness
Then will fortune favor me
I can't ignore the feeling I'd be
Better-off outside my head
If there's a life worth living
Give it to somebody else instead
My grip is slipping
I am losing feeling
In my hands and knees
But breathing under
Water isn't hard
When you have company
So get yourself a friend
Who can fill-up your black notebook
And get yourself a friend
Who can throw a mean right-hook
One who keeps glass jars full
Of magic all around
And one who still finds wonder
In wonders left on the ground
Keep your friends close
And leave your enemies behind
Crawl-out of the lion's den
Inside of your own mind
Reach through the dark
Find a steady hand
Shaking legs still work
When someone's
Helping you to stand
Keep your friends close
Leave your demons at the door
Golden hour happens
After darkness and before
If you let the light
In through your window
I found inspiration
Where I never looked before
In the hands that pulled
Me off the floor
