Talking To God (Explicit)歌词-J-easy

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Hey god

It's me again

I've been tryin to reach you for days did you not get my messages

Or did I not pray enough and reach a certain percentage

I've been doing what I need to do so I can change

Guess me and you are not on the same page

People say that you don't judge but how could you when you put them in these situations trapped inside thit cage

That where I draw the line because you don't know my ways

No matter what anyone says you've put my thru some of my darkest days

Even when things are looking up you decide to set it up in a blaze

How can I put faith in a man when I look in the mirror and can't have faith with the man in front of me

But see that's where you and I don't agree but I don't give a damn

I believe in you but I can't put my life in some imaginary hands

Bet you don't remember the night I was driving to that hospital

Every second we got closer my heart got smaller little by little

When she walked in that building it's like my world got little

I won't continue the story cause ill get choked up little

But you knew what was up

Sucker punched me in gut for what

What did I do to get this clean cut

I had my whole life planned out

Had the military plans were 20 then I was out

Later on before I knew it you planned on taking that from me too what was that about

I'm not questioning you I just need answers

If you can't give them to me that's gonna hurt

I try my best to put others first but the way you treat me feels like it's a curse

What do you want me to do

I'm asking you to rebirth me

Make me what you want me to be

Cause it seems what I want just is not right

I put up this fight get blinded and loose my sight

These thought of suicide only comes at night

That's I lay awake at night in sweats I'm terrified

So man to man how is this gonna be

Can I work on my life and be set free

If you know what I love don't take from me

Can God almighty see with his all seeing eyes

You gave me a brain to make me wise

I'm going insane so please make it smaller in size

I'm telling you god if I could I would cut my ties

Everyone telling me to put my faith in you when it's all lies

I figure them out before so now your plan is compromised

You're mesmerized then you quickly get something else organized

Making hard to win at life you make me paralyzed

Thinking that this isn't what the Bible advertised

You could've helped me in my time of need but now I'm traumatized

Now I'm ready to leave this Earth and take off in flight

I don't care what anybody says what you're doing isn't right

I try to keep the peace to avoid issues

But that causes a battle in my head just wish you knew damn I need a tissue

Why can't you see I'm struggling just take all of it with you

I've had it with everything I'm suffocating I'm turning blue

Looking down on this Earth and see what I'm going through

You really make me question why I even have this tattoo

And when I say the things I do people take me as that fool

I know everything has a reason that happens in my life

So I guess I'm going to take the Gamble and roll the dice

I'm not okay I'm not my self I'm drained

I'm asking you to calm my mind calm my brain

Please heal my heart and take all my worries away

Cause I really feel like I don't wanna live another day.

Give me my life back that I deserve

I even tried to give being a soldier first

Seems like that wasn't enough so that's what hurts

I want to shout and scream but don't want to burst

Hate revealing this side cause I'm at my worst

It's sucks I know my worth but I help for free

Things change so now I'm charging a fee

If you yourself won't let me be imma use my brain you gave me to think for my self and understand the reality

I'll shoot back like a rubber band i promise that you'll see

So god when I'm expressing my feelings please don't take it the wrong way

Sometimes it's hard to articulate what I say

Life is so dull all I see is gray

But hey I haven't given up not even a day

I feel like I've accomplished so much but I'm only half way

But my problem is when I get on a track and want to talk I don't know what to say

I'll go way off beat get flustered now I gotta pay

And it sucks cuz I can't control what's on my tray

Everything just piles up like a mountain of hey

So back to me I wanna be free

Let me be

I wanna be at peace drifting off at sea

Thank you for listen but I know you dont agree

All I'm sayin and want the answer for is

Why me